It's not just a bad day~so Why am I So Depressed?

                       Depression is more than just a bad day. We all have bad days. When the car won’t start, and your late to work, and the kids are fighting, and your misplace your keys, ok you get the picture. Then of course you can be depressed if you get laid off from your job, or a friend you were close to abruptly stops the friendship or your marriage is on the rocks, or you or someone you love is sick and of course death, something no one of can avoid. Some depression is circumstantial based on what’s going on in your life at the time.

                 What happens though when it becomes much more of a issue, and at times things seem to be going ok, but you still  feel depressed, your withdrawing from those you love and aren’t finding joy in anything anymore, you can’t pull yourself up .Nothing anyone says makes you feel any better. Its then you realize this much more, and you then make a appointment to see a doctor.then the doctor diagnoses you with clinical depression or bipolar.clinical depression chemical imbalance in the brain,Bipolar is when you have episodes of Depression and then Mania and of course there are different types of bipolar, we will go into that later~

               There is no shame, there is such a stigma about mental illness and we need to speak up and be a voice, share our stories and stop hiding away from the world. It’s not time for Defeat, it can be a scary time when you’ve never dealt with this before, but its treatable and people can function with the proper Doctors and counseling and a lot of times medication. There is no shame. If we don’t speak out then the stigma will remain, and people will make their own assumptions about it.

             Your story matters, you’re here for a reason, I’m not a College major in psychology, though when I was in college studying early childhood education, I did take some courses in psychology, but I have LIFE experience in it. I dealt with Depression from the time I was 13 until 19, then at age 19 was diagnosed with Bipolar, anxiety, PTSD, panic attacks, and I was on just about ever medication that was out there for Bipolar/depression. Yes I’ve done research on this too and I ve had some people in my life very close to me that have dealt with these things too. So I understand, yes doctors go to school to learn how the brain works and know all about the disorders and how they each affect people.

               Yet ask yourself how many of those doctors have experienced depression, bipolar first hand, who know what it feels like to be so defeated you’ve lost hope, whose  moods change as quickly as the seasons come and go. Who have walked through the doors of a psych ward and been locked away because they were a danger to themselves? Who are so scared of themselves? 
               Depression is an Ugly Monster than can come in quietly and Wreck havoc in our lives loudly, but there is Hope! And that’s why I’m doing this blog to help you see through that darkness you’re in; there is a light at the end of the tunnel.